It's crashing waves
it's a cold and biting wind
whipping my hair around my face
stinging my eyes,
it's visibility of about one quarter inch.
It's a lot.
It's not just one thing,
and it's not just my story.
It's just overwhelming.
It's been tears before breakfast,
it's been looking around myself and thinking
what am I supposed to be doing right now?
It's reaching down into the deepest parts of my faith
it's reaching up into the deepest parts of Him.
It's reaching out to let my people know what's going on with me
it's taking a deep breath as they pray over me.
It's this song:
I'll be honest, the synth in this song won me over first.
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It's worship music on repeat,
It's breathing in trust.
It's breathing out peace.
It's taking today one moment at a time
and doing the best I can
even if it's not checking off every item on the to do list.
It's Jesus, the one you love is heart-sick.
And knowing that He weeps with those who weep.
I don't have the security of any one certain outcome
I do know I can be certain that my God my Father will never let me go
I don't have a timeline for things getting any better.
I do have security in God's love for me
and I have a hope that for all of this...
something good is coming.
So I can take one brave step at a time,
I can choose love when I want to choose to act in ager
I can seek the face of my Daddy God
where I see Him smiling
proud of me
even if my attempts often fail
and choose love.